Holy pickles batman!!!

Yes, I know, it's been FOREVER, but what can I say, no computer and limited computer time leads to a lack of updating!

I am now 20 weeks, 6 days and feeling great. Baby is measuring a little over a week ahead. We've known since 16 weeks that baby is a boy (oh my!) and at my last appointment this past Monday he was fat. Most babies at 20 weeks are 10.5 oz and Tyler was weighing 15 oz!! Crazy!

Aside from that, all is well. Bill started work this week (it's nice for things to be back to normal) and Logan is so very anxious for his little brother's arrival. My c-section is scheduled for Sept 10th, so if Tyler chooses to cooperate that is when he will make his debut.

I have another appointment on June 3rd (with another scan I think) and then my orientation class for the L&D is on June 21st. We also signed Logan up for a sibiling class that he'll do on August 1st.

A little bit of everything Update!!!

So, it's been a while, but a lot has gone on in that time!! First of all, I'm almost finished with the 1T!! I am 12w 5 d as of right now. I had an appointment on Monday at 12w 1d with U/S and baby is beautiful, perfect, HB of 154, very active trying to kick the wand off my belly (even at a tiny 12 weeks!!) and measuring 3 days ahead!!! WOOT WOOT!! That means, today at 12w 5 d baby is measuring 13w 1d!!! YEA!!! Extra is a good thing!!!

Our next appointment is April 6th. It's just a regular appointment and we will schedule our BIG U/S at that time. I'm thinking about having it at 19w 1d so it can be on Bill's b-day.

I've been tortured by girly clothing in Wal-mart lately. I swear, even if this little one has a penis, he is wearing frilly, ruffley, pink clothing!! Everyone else seems to think that's not going to happen, but I'm Momma and I have the last say!! LOL!!

We got all moved in only to have a gigantic flood in our entire apartment so now we're in this waiting period while our plumbing is being fully fixed and our carpet is waiting to be put back (new carpet) and we're holding off on unpacking everything since we're just going to have to move it again. Luckily most of the boxes that got wet held clothing or blankets or other expendable, easy to replace items. I did have a few pics and our marriage certificate get wet but all were easily salvaged..so it was good. Thank God b/c it could have been a lot worse...especially if I hadn't freaked out the night before and made Bill move all the boxes!! LOL!!

So, that's about it for now. This pregnancy is moving along at break-neck speeds. It seemed like FOREVER to get through the 1T with Logan and maybe it's b/c I have Logan to keep me occupied now or maybe all the things that have been going on and how busy we've been everyday but it's been soooo quick....not that I'm complaining!!!! LOL!! Hopefully I will be able to update more frequently. We still have to set our computer up!

First Appointment

I had my first appointment on Monday and it went amazing!! We had an U/S and got to hear the wonderfully beating heart and see it on the screen and we got some pics. The U/S was a lot better then the pics. Doc couldn't get a good enough angle for long enough to get a good pic..typical of my children!! LOL!! Anyway, here are the pics and now we just wait until March 9th and my next appointment!

Just a few things...

I've forgotten to mention! First of all, I just realized some of you have left comments (DUH!). I just never looked! So, thanks for your comments! I love hearing from ya'll!

Secondly, I did end up making an appointment with a new OB. FIrst, I tried calling back to my old OB and that was a nightmare (made an appointment..2 really...and then some really rude, mean lady called back and left a message and said she was cancelling them b/c I didn't have the right insurance) so I decided to find a different OB. I'm SOOO glad I did! B/c of my size, my prior m/c and me being a repeat c-section, I can be considered high risk (even though I'm not really). This means, I can go to the speciality OB clinic at the new hospital!! This means, I get superb docs, all new facilities (they are about 2-ish years old) an U/S at every appointment, if I want it (they even asked permission to do an U/S at my first appointment..like I'd say no!!!!) I get to deliver in the new hospital and I have many more options for care then anywhere else. Let's just say, I'm now glad for the previous nightmare!

So, I have my first appointment with the OB that delivered Logan next monday (2/16) and then I think I have an appointment at the new OB on March 9th. So, be prepared for lots of baby blob pics!!!

8 weeks!!

Well, I've made it. It feels good to be past my m/c date (7w2d). It's odd, but at times I almost feel bad b/c I don't feel bad. I swear, that makes sense, even if only in my crazy preggo mind. What I mean is, I have a lot of friends that are PG after a m/c as well and it seems like they have days that they just completely freak out all day long. We call it having a PAL brain (that would be Pregnant After Loss). It does change the way you see PG. It's no longer this wonderful 9 months journey that always ends in a screaming bundle of baby. Sometimes, it's a torture...painful and horrible with no reward at the end except a m/c date and maybe a surgical procedure. So, you can see why your brain is wired differently after experiencing the heartache of loss. Now, here's why I sometimes feel bad. While I'm still totally a PAL and I have been more cautious with this PG then I ever was with the last two (no caffeine, making 100% certain I take my vitamins and iron, no lifting, nothing too strenous, no tummy sleeping, etc), I have this peaceful reassurance that all is well and I haven't had a PAL freak out. I still check the TP everytime I go to the bathroom, just to make sure there's nothing there and I still have a little mini heartattack when the gas feels like cramps, but honestly, it's been so mild that it's almost unnoticeable. I think that's part of the reason why I haven't really been posting much on my messageboards. I just feel a bit out of place. I don't fit in with the first time moms, those that are naive and don't know about loss, but I also don't feel like I fit in with those who know loss. I'm just stuck in the middle. It's okay, b/c I honestly don't have to fit in anywhere to be happy, I'm just simply here..and that's okay.

When I got pregnant with Logan, I just simply knew that I would have a baby at the end..and not just a baby but a perfect little healthy bundle. As we all know, I was spot on. I knew when we started TTC for #2 and then got PG that it wasn't going to be an easy PG. I didn't know that I would have a m/c, but I knew it was going to be hard. This time, I feel the same way as I did with Logan. I'm just simply okay with it. Now, that has a massive potential for disaster and we'll know more in a week, but for now, I'm just content. It's weird for me to feel that way. It's strange b/c after the m/c I just simply knew if I could just get PG again it would be fine and so far, I'm right. That's not to say I couldn't be wrong, but I just don't feel like I am.

I have my first appointment in a week. That's another weird thing. When I got PG with Logan, I was mad that they made me wait until 8 weeks to see the nurse, then 12 weeks to see the doctor. It was at 12 weeks that I had my first u/s to check for dating. Last time, I wanted to get in ASAP. I was almost frantic about insisting that I get into the orientation immediatly and I wanted the bloodwork done that day. I didn't even wait for the insurance (which covered it, but I didn't care). I just knew I had to have the bloodwork done. That led to disaster. For a few weeks it was nothign but blood draws and bruised arms (I looked like a heroine addict) and faltering numbers and eventual spotting and finally a m/c baby. This time, I'm so okay with the fact that I haven't even gone yet. I took that first test and that was enough for me. I did the digitals to appease Bill (and b/c I just liked seeing them) but I didn't even feel like I needed to. I was okay. I haven't had any blood work done, even though I easily could have, b/c I just simply don't feel the need to be reassured in that way. I'm just confident in the PG for some unexplained reason and I am more then okay with that!

So, I've reached 8 weeks and the morning sickness has faded some. Still have some nausea and sore girls and dizziness if I stand up too fast. I'm still EXHAUSTED (yes it needs to be yelled) and grouchy and hungry but not really wanting to eat. My tummy has started to..umm..not grow..but change. I don't tend to gain wait, my body just changes shape. My smallest jeans no longer fit properly. My middle sized jeans are not going to last much longer. Luckily I bought some nice comfy big relaxed fit jeans with the gift card my mom gave me for Christmas. It's PJs only at home right now b/c it's the most comfortable! My feet have been like ice cubes continually and it drives me crazy. With Logan I was burning up hot all the time..now, I freeze. I swear if I spit it would be an icecicle!!

I'd post a belly pic..but umm..ewww! Don't get me wrong, I love belly pics, but since I don't really show in the traditional sense and I have a rather large belly to begin with..I'm just totally not into it! I promise, in a week I will post an u/s pic, b/c I'm going to insist that Dr. Holland throw me on the machine..I want to SEEE this baby..and make sure that Bill's wrong and Logan too. It's only A baby..1..uno..single...no twins for me!

6 weeks 2 days!!

A week and 2 days and I've made it past my first big milestone. Our angel left us at 7 weeks 3 days so unlike those lucky women who've never lost, my first milestone is not the end of the 1st trimester, but rather is surviving past my miscarriage date. I'm doing fantastically (is that a word?). Everything with this pregnancy, so far, has been completely opposite of Logan. With Logan, I was tired (spent almost 2 weeks in bed!!) and only got sick one time and had a little bit of nausea every now and again. So far, I'm nauseous always, exhausted continually, hungry but nothing sounds good at all, unable to eat very much at one time (half an orange and I feel full) and I'm defiantly moody and emotional. I also don't want to be touched in any way shape or form (which is not a far cry from normal but now it extends to everyone except Logan). But, I'm still loving it.

I have my first OB appointment scheduled for Feb 16th with Dr. Holland, my OB in Astoria. I seriously wish I could just travel to Astoria for every appointment and have this baby in Astoria like I did Logan. They are seriously the greatest people and I don't know if any physician has ever made me feel as cared for and important and knowledgeable as these guys. But, insurance won't allow the trip! Poo! It's okay though, I loved the OB I had the first 7 months of my pregnancy with Logan and I should be getting back in with her in Vancouver, so that's a good trade.

It seems as though everyone thinks this baby is a girl. Logan has since he told me I was pregnant and my Mom and sister call it a she and Bill and I also think it's a girl. The exact same thing that happened with Logan has happened again. We tried for weeks and weeks to come up with names. Logan came asap. It was a done deal. When we went for my 20 week u/s we weren't even close to agreeing on a girl's name and then we never had to. Now, we have a girl's name all ready (as a matter of fact, it's what Logan calls my tummy) and are about a far as you can get from picking out a boy's name. Again, my wonderful husband is doing the same thing as he did when we picked out names the first time...shooting down all my selections immediatly without adding any of his own. I'm amazed we finally agreed on a girls name since he was 100% stuck on Holly, refused any other name and was determined to name our girl Holly. I disagreed. I thought I was going to have to pull a quickie and fill out the paperwork while he was otherwise occupied!! (Okay, so I'd never really do that..our kid would just be known as Baby G Beavers until she turned 18 and could pick her own!!).

So, what is the name you ask?? That would be Kameron Jaelynn. We both love Kameron and I have a big thing for the letter K (I know, I'm weird). As for the middle name...it's a made up combination of family names. Bill and I both have family names (William is his grandpa/uncle and Carrol..my middle name..is my grandmmother) and we felt that was a tradition we wanted to keep with our children's middle names. Logan's is William (duh!) which runs on my side of the family as well (my great grandfather and great uncle) so it was just a given. If we do have a boy, his middle name will be Charles (my grandpa). As for Jaelynn...The J comes from my grandma's middle name of Jane, the spelling of Jay as Jae comes from my mother's middle name of Rae and Lynn is both of Bill's parent's middle names. So, yes, it's complicated and we've spent way too long thinking it through (we've had 2 years to work on it!) but it's cute and we like it!!

So now, this baby had better be a girl or we're in some trouble!!

Who would have thought feeling sick...

would feel so good??? I swear, I never did, but I'm loving every minute of icky, nauseated, gross feelings and I wouldn't give it up for anything! Sick is good! LOL! Just my thought for the day!